"We may not have it all together, but together we have it all."
Author: Unknown
Friday, May 28, 2010
Wednesday, May 26, 2010
I have to be honest with myself
I don't mean to be all poor poor pitiful me, but i need to vent...release some of my thoughts or maybe just have a reality check. You are being warned, so if you want to exit now....i sure don't blame you! Here lately i have been so pessimistic. Of course, going to work every day waiting to hear if we are going to close or have a layoff will do that to someone. I am trying to see the brighter side of things and be optimistic, but I just seem to keep questioning my life in a sense. Don't get me wrong, i am truly blessed in a million different ways...i have more at 23 than most people have in a lifetime, but the thing i hate the most about myself is the fact that i question everything in my life. I can't make up mind. I want and have always wanted people to make decisions for me. I have regrets...nothing major, just little things that add up to be a lot. I regret not taking more pictures of friends that have came in and out of my life, of my high school years, of my college years. I regret dropping out of Middleton High School and transferring to Gateway Christian School because i didn't get to experience my senior year, or MY senior prom (thankfully i was asked to go by a great friend, but it wasn't the same),I didn't get to walk at my graduation with all of my friends that i literally grew up with. I have made a lot of bad decisions/wrong decisions in my life and i am sure i will make many more, but i have to quit concentrating on the past and look forward to my future. I am semi-thankful for all the mistakes i have made in my past because they have shaped me into the person i am today...i have literally lived and learned, but unfortunately i don't know who i am. A woman that i love and admire told me a few months ago to "just be yourself"and my response was "I don't know how to be". That conversation plays over and over in my head. Who doesn't know how to be themselves?
I'm a people pleaser which is good in some aspects of life, but i admire people who could careless what people think of them. It must be so liberating, so exhilarating.
Some things that i do know about myself are that I'm afraid of change, actually i hate it-every aspect of it, i absolutely cant stand to wear the same outfit twice, i hate drinking soft drinks without a straw, i prefer sweets over meat, i love to laugh even if its at myself, i love to travel and go on vacation, i want to take a photography class, i want to learn how to make professional cakes, i heart whales, i lurrrrvvve high heels, I hate politics, but i admire the president..not just our current president, but all of them, i love to read books about real life people and their stories and i am a sucker for romantic movies, I believe in the Lord and i pray every night, but I don't think going to church every time the doors are open gets you to heaven, I usually like people that other people tend to hate, im 98% sure that every person that has ever meant anything to me has made me cry at least once, whether it was a sad cry or a happy cry, I love to brush my teeth, i worry about EVERYTHING and at times i am selfish.
I have a beautiful family, a roof over my head, food to eat, water to drink, and as of right now a job that I love-I have to be honest with myself and im sure i will eventually figure out how to do that, but for now im going to focus on my career, or should i say, what i want to be when i grow up...haha just kidding. Sort of. Surely i will get out of this funk sooner or later!
I'm a people pleaser which is good in some aspects of life, but i admire people who could careless what people think of them. It must be so liberating, so exhilarating.
Some things that i do know about myself are that I'm afraid of change, actually i hate it-every aspect of it, i absolutely cant stand to wear the same outfit twice, i hate drinking soft drinks without a straw, i prefer sweets over meat, i love to laugh even if its at myself, i love to travel and go on vacation, i want to take a photography class, i want to learn how to make professional cakes, i heart whales, i lurrrrvvve high heels, I hate politics, but i admire the president..not just our current president, but all of them, i love to read books about real life people and their stories and i am a sucker for romantic movies, I believe in the Lord and i pray every night, but I don't think going to church every time the doors are open gets you to heaven, I usually like people that other people tend to hate, im 98% sure that every person that has ever meant anything to me has made me cry at least once, whether it was a sad cry or a happy cry, I love to brush my teeth, i worry about EVERYTHING and at times i am selfish.
I have a beautiful family, a roof over my head, food to eat, water to drink, and as of right now a job that I love-I have to be honest with myself and im sure i will eventually figure out how to do that, but for now im going to focus on my career, or should i say, what i want to be when i grow up...haha just kidding. Sort of. Surely i will get out of this funk sooner or later!
Friday, May 21, 2010
CoCo Graduated Kindergarten (And I Only Cried Once)
Christopher Coden Bass, my sweet little nephew, graduated Kindergarten yesterday! I am so proud of this little booger, you just cant even begin to know how proud of him i am. 
You see my friends, Coden wasn't aware that his Aunt Roo Roo would be attending his graduation; what he also didn't know was that his Aunt Roo Roo wasn't going to miss it for the world! I was seated (ok i was standing while everyone else was sitting, so i could take a picture, i know you are probably thinking im crazy, but that's how i roll) with my family as the kindergartners proudly walked out to take the stage. Coden was making his way down the isle skimming through the audience for some familiar faces and the first face he recognized was his Aunt Roo Roo's. Let me just tell you, this kids face lit up like the fourth of July, he had a smile from ear to ear and he immediately starting waving at me. Of course this is when i sobbed and looked like a complete fool crying my eyes out, but I was steadily taking pictures dang it! He did, however, gain his composure (unfortunately it took Roo Roo a little longer) and went straight back to his serious march! 
But that didn't keep him from glancing over at us every so often and flashing a smirky little grin! 
Back to the serious face...I mean after all he has a reputation to maintain. 
Kindergartners Class of 2010
The program was so darn cute, they sang songs, and danced, and some kids forgot when they were supposed to get up and do their part and it was so irresistibly sweet! Coden was a flag holder and i swear im not bias or anything, but he was the cutest little flag holder that i have ever layed my eyes on and he sang his little heart out which made it even cuter!
Then they sang this song and for the life of me i can't remember the words, but it involved alot of dancing :-) 
Now let me just say this...I can not BELIEVE all the stuff that kindergartners learn these days. I don't really remember much from when i was in kindergarten except maybe nap time and the fact that i was in a split class of kindergartners and first graders and i was in class with my older cousin...talk about weird...but im pretty sure we weren't learning the things that these little youngsters are learning. They sang their abc's...in sign language...and made the sounds of each letter...all at the same time! HOLY COW, now that is freakin talent!
You see my friends, Coden wasn't aware that his Aunt Roo Roo would be attending his graduation; what he also didn't know was that his Aunt Roo Roo wasn't going to miss it for the world! I was seated (ok i was standing while everyone else was sitting, so i could take a picture, i know you are probably thinking im crazy, but that's how i roll) with my family as the kindergartners proudly walked out to take the stage. Coden was making his way down the isle skimming through the audience for some familiar faces and the first face he recognized was his Aunt Roo Roo's. Let me just tell you, this kids face lit up like the fourth of July, he had a smile from ear to ear and he immediately starting waving at me. Of course this is when i sobbed and looked like a complete fool crying my eyes out, but I was steadily taking pictures dang it! He did, however, gain his composure (unfortunately it took Roo Roo a little longer) and went straight back to his serious march! But that didn't keep him from glancing over at us every so often and flashing a smirky little grin! Back to the serious face...I mean after all he has a reputation to maintain. Kindergartners Class of 2010The program was so darn cute, they sang songs, and danced, and some kids forgot when they were supposed to get up and do their part and it was so irresistibly sweet! Coden was a flag holder and i swear im not bias or anything, but he was the cutest little flag holder that i have ever layed my eyes on and he sang his little heart out which made it even cuter!
Then they sang this song and for the life of me i can't remember the words, but it involved alot of dancing :-) Now let me just say this...I can not BELIEVE all the stuff that kindergartners learn these days. I don't really remember much from when i was in kindergarten except maybe nap time and the fact that i was in a split class of kindergartners and first graders and i was in class with my older cousin...talk about weird...but im pretty sure we weren't learning the things that these little youngsters are learning. They sang their abc's...in sign language...and made the sounds of each letter...all at the same time! HOLY COW, now that is freakin talent! This picture totally cracks me up! :-) 
Whoever thought it was a great idea to put a big bush/plant on the stage in front of KINDERGARTNERS aka short people was a complete moron. Just sayin!
Whoever thought it was a great idea to put a big bush/plant on the stage in front of KINDERGARTNERS aka short people was a complete moron. Just sayin!
At the end of the program they sang a song about stars while they were facing the front and when the song ended they turned around and had these star sunglasses on. So cute!
The proud graduate! 
We are so proud of you CoCo! God willing, i will be at your 6th grade, 12th grade, and college graduation and yes i will probably still be the crazy one standing while everyone is sitting. It seems like just yesterday i was barging through the hospital doors to meet you, and staying there every single night just so i could hold you! I love the little boy that you have become! I love you to pieces, kiddo ;-)
My sister called me last night and told me Coden said "I am just so glad my Aunt Roo Roo came to my graduation!" Oh my good grief, it made my ever loving day.
No seriously, It. Made. My. Day!!!
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Monday, May 17, 2010
Russell's Graduation Weekend Part III
Sunday we visited with Mawmaw Duff. We just love her so much. Unfortunately, alzheimer's have taken over and she wasn't really sure who we were. We think she recognized Jason, but she couldn't remember his name. She was so happy that we came to visit, but i think we might have overwhelmed her a little since so many of us piled into her room. She is an incredible woman with a huge heart. I'm thankful that Landon and I have both had the privilege of meeting her :-) 
Landon and Mawmaw Duff sharing a moment with a snickers bar ;-) I love this picture!
Landon being the little entertainer (and almost kicking Kelsey in the face) lol
~This picture is so darn sweet...brings tears to my eyes~
After our visit with Mawmaw Duff we took Landon to the park.
And
a
good time 
was had
by all!!! 
Landon and Mawmaw Duff sharing a moment with a snickers bar ;-) I love this picture!Landon being the little entertainer (and almost kicking Kelsey in the face) lol~This picture is so darn sweet...brings tears to my eyes~After our visit with Mawmaw Duff we took Landon to the park.Anda
good time was hadby all!!! Russell's Graduation Weekend Part II
~LIFE IS GOOD~
After Russell's graduation we packed up and headed to the river AKA our favorite place to be in the summer time! We stopped at the beach and let Landon have a little fun.
After Russell's graduation we packed up and headed to the river AKA our favorite place to be in the summer time! We stopped at the beach and let Landon have a little fun.
At first 
he wasnt too sure 
about having sand 
between his toes.
But he quickly warmed up too the idea :-) 
Nana trying to stay shaded with her camo umbrella! HAHA I love this picture~
Jason and Landon decided to build sand castle's
or should I say Jason built sand castles
while Landon observed
and proceeded to tell Jason
how to actually build it. 
Bossy kid i tell ya! 
Ahhh...nothing like good ole river water! 
Ok scratch that...Ahhh, nothing like being on the river 
soaking up the sun
and enjoying the greatest things in life
which just so happens to be....family!
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